... so many times that it would be a truly insane endeavor to list all of my failures here. So instead, here is a list about failure.
A few random things to know about failure (based on my extensive research.:
Your failures make for your best stories.
Failure means that you are living an interesting life.
Failure can make you a legend, especially when you recover from failure, as all failures can do.
Failure will teach you more than your inevitable success.
Failure is a test.
Failure is inevitable.
Failure is a ghost.
Failure can be fun.
Failure can very well teach you to be compassionate.
If you don't quit, you can't fail.
Failure is not fatal.
Failure means you've tested something out and it didn't work out. That's great news, now do it differently next time and you may end up succeeding.
Failure is temporary.
My ability to fail and learn from my failures has been one of the things that I am most proud of because it is that ability that has and will continue to lead me to success.
I often tell people that the three worst things that have ever happened to me ended up being the three best things that have ever happened to me. Because of what I did with those failures.
Often times if I'm failing at something over and over again I end up getting so bored by my pattern (of safety or habit) that I force myself to begin to try new things. Often times this brings on a greater risk of failure, in the short term.
I once got so bored of auditioning for commercials that I forced myself to do something utterly terrifying and inappropriate for the scene during each audition so that at least it would be a different experience for me.
This risk and the failures and successes that it produced taught me a lot about taking risks.
My point is this: if you're failing, you're living and if you're failing, you're not alone.
Keep going, keep growing.
Are you constantly seeking to change yourself or fix yourself?
Are you alway seeking more knowledge or wider acceptance or validation from outer sources before you act on or accept your interests, artistry or instincts?
Are you waiting until you have it all figured out or some parental figure in your life tells you that you are "ready" or "good enough"?
If you are, be careful because it's very likely that that day will never come. It is my experience that even if that day does come and you hear the validation that you have longed for you may very well not believe it because it is not coming from YOU!
You are the captain of this ship ~ you are steering the course ~ not anybody else ~ they don't have the right to, only you do!
It is time to live life on your own terms and to begin, right now, AS YOU ARE.
I think that this comes down to acceptance of what is and self acceptance of who and what we are, right now, in this very moment (the only moment that ever exists btw).
Accepting your self and accepting your life and present moment reality is the basis from which you can build an authentic life and a growing creative outlook which leads to a growing creative output.
This idea often runs counter to everything that we have been told in life especially after going through an education system where we are often taught to conform, to study and to get it "right".
It is most likely that we have never been taught anything about acceptance and or gratitude for what is and where we are right now as a place to work from.
Many of us don't have any idea about self forgiveness. Look it up!
By the way, don't misunderstand me, acceptance is not giving up or throwing in the towel.
Acceptance is an act of honesty and ownership that allows you to notice and acknowledge where you are in your journey. It also allows you to get present, look around you and take stock of what is actually happening in this moment.
Acceptance, when practiced, can take you out of fear of all forms.
As you practice accepting You and honoring You, you will steadily begin to trust your true inner voice, or as the Bible calls it "the still small voice" within.
As you begin to trust it, it grows louder and as the force of it grows and then your instincts will become clearer and then actions will begin to naturally flow out of you and into the world that are unique to you and true to you.
What could be better than that?
The truth of you, flowing to you, through you and out into the very life that you are dreaming to create.
Why wait for permission when you can begin today, AS YOU ARE!?
Take a breath, take a walk, take a look around you and begin listening to what you heart is telling you, it will never lead you wrong.
The life of an artist is really all about taking your first step whether you feel like you are ready to or not.
So, for example, this post here is a living, breathing example of that, it's my first blog entry!
I am an Actor and an Improviser and a Producer of short films. I love to create things that are typically a little left of center and have heart.
I am also an art painter that has no training and yet I've sold many of my paintings.
I've dabbled in all types of creativity and the only thing that I am sure of at this point is that the most important thing that anyone who wants to live a creative life can count on is that you get out of it what you put in to it.
That is one simple thing but that one thing encompasses a lot of topics and practices.
Fear not, once you start you will figure them out as you go.
My bullet points for living a creative life go like this:
1) What do you really love doing?
2) Do that.
3) Start now. Literally. Right now.
Notice that I don't put in any "get the right training at expensive / prestigious school" steps or any "ask your parents / society / your friends for permission" steps or even any "be realistic, do something that is safe and wait until you are 65 and have (maybe) earned enough money and then do it then" steps.
Based on my real life / real world creative living experience, the best thing to do is "JUST START".
Start right from where you are. For better or worse.
Take one small action in the direction that you want to move and whether or not that works out take another step after that and another step after that. And keep going. Onward forever.
There's my new action for the day, more to come!